The old man was admitted to the hospital with cerebral hemorrhage. After coming home from the hospital, her four children refused to take care of them. The next day she drank pesticides.

I.

Ten years of life and death. In the twinkling of an eye, her husband has left her for decades. For more than a decade, whenever I think of my husband, the deepest thing in my memory is always Ah Cai's pain.

Ah Cai spent his childhood and adolescence in chaos. After settling down, he just gave birth to a litter of children and encountered turbulent years of poverty. The most excruciating thing is that A Cai's husband left when the youngest son was 4 years old, leaving endless thoughts and the pressure of life to A Cai.

She is short, has thin shoulders and round waist, works in the fields, suffers more, but earns less money.

Her short fingers pierced the needle and soon a beautiful new dress was ready.

II.

Because she wants to be both a mother and a father, she is afraid that without fatherly love, the children's growth will be flawed.

His family looked at his younger son everywhere in daily life, because the child was young and had not received much fatherly love, so the eldest brother made a lot of toys for him with craftsmanship when he was young.

Although they are old enough to go to school, the eldest brother and the second elder sister can only drop out after junior high school, and the children have finished junior high school, which has made Ah Cai have white hair. Every weekend afternoon, the child would put his face on the window alone and envy to watch the other friends go back to school.

The heavy burden made Ah Cai out of breath, and this small potato without any background could only sell his physical strength even more desperately. She found a job transporting goods in Hanzheng Street, which is to use tricycles to pull goods for others every day.

3.

The children began to go out to work and gradually got married. Ah Cai was old, and the small potatoes doomed her unfortunate fate. No longer want to be rich and rich, but the most excruciating thing is Ah Cai's illness.

She always has headaches and high blood pressure, which can't stimulate her. At the beginning of the illness, she could bear it, and the pain soon passed. Later, the pain lasted longer and longer, and the pain became more and more severe. Cai sometimes sat on a small bench and felt very unwell, but no one could help her share her pain except to take some medicine herself.

The river of years has taken away too much of the past, but these fragments of Ah Cai's pain have settled down forever, as if these pains made up the rest of her life. Working at sunrise and resting at sunset is the life of all farmers, and these ailments make her slightly different from others.

IV.

"the tree wants to be quiet but the wind does not stop, and the son wants to raise but does not wait." A Cai worked hard in the first half of his life, and his lower body was ill and restless. As a child, he could not understand, let alone talk about rewards.

A Cai was sent to the hospital because of a cerebral hemorrhage. The doctor said that it was caused by a small tumor in her brain, but because she was old and could not bear it on her body, she had to receive conservative treatment. After a period of time in the hospital, A Cai discharged from the hospital and went home.

Her movement has become a huge problem. She can't take care of herself and can only take care of her children. After her four children take turns to take care of her for a month, no one wants to take care of her mother any more.

Cai knew her life was coming to an end, and the day after her youngest son came home, she drank the pesticide.